A recurrent pattern for maths fans to ponder..........

* You are alone, no one likes you for ages
* Someone likes you
* You aren't sure about them because you have been alone for ages and don't really know what you're doing/if you can trust them cos you have been really hurt before
* They really like you and pursue you a bit
* You are scared - what do they want from you? Do they want a relationship? You don't know if you can cope with that, what if you don't live up to their high expectations? What if everyone they have loved before is much, much better? What could they possibly want you for, after all they hardly know you, when they get to know you, surely they will leave like everyone else...you back off
* But they seem really keen, perhaps you could just give it a go, it could really help you overcome all of the above, after all you can't be alone forever...
* You start to warm to the idea, you start to like them a lot, maybe they could be the one? Maybe you can do this after all...
* You give in to their advances a bit, you start to say nice things, things that suggest you like them and want to see them
* You start to really like them, thank god - at last! Normal positive emotions! You are saved! Someone loves you!
* Something is wrong, they start to not return your calls, they stop telling your friends they love you and you're amazing, they back the hell off, you ask their friends where they are, they say they don't know
* You start to pursue them, you don't understand...they said they really liked/love you? Where are they? What's wrong?
* They disappear completely
* You feel like an idiot for thinking someone could actually be interested in you, YOU - ha! What were you thinking, have you seen you recently?! Well you won't make the same mistake twice/three times/more than a dozen times in one life time, that's it - you're done with love, it can fuck off...
* You are alone, no one likes you for ages...(Repeat cycle indefinitely for the rest of your life)