I'm so bored I could vomit out my brains and then eat them and then vomit them out again and then...you get my drift. Today I have been tearing stuff off my walls and ruthlessly throwing cds out - I thought I had some great music in my cd collection but last night my eye fell upon a Linkin Park album and things have not been going well since. I blame university, I aquired a worrying amount of nu metal whilst I was there. I could try and console myself with the fact that this was 1998-2001 and the beginning of the genre and it probably seemed cool and edgy at the time but I don't know if I believe myself. So now I have detoxed my music collection of nu metal and I have a large box containing aforementioned L****n P**k cd, Papa Roach, Lostprophets etc etc and I will go and distribute them amoungst the homeless tomorrow. Or something, I don't really know what. The good news is that I have never purchased anything that Fred Durst has been involved in so I'm not totally unsavable.

So did everyone see Courtney Love on Jonothan Ross on Friday? I caught most of it after stumbling in from an evening out - I think she was pretty marvelous, a true survivor. She was more or less together and coherent and intelligent. I loved the fact she admits she still falls for troubled, artistic men that are a mess. Join the fucking club...I was hoping to grow out of it but if Courtney Love can't do it then I sure as hell won't! JC however was an arsehole, as always - apparently before the show Juliette Lewis invited him to her gig the next day but after he'd been interviewed and was a total tit about Americans and the environment and all that bollocks no one backstage spoke to him so he figured the gig offer was off. I can't type his actual name cos my good friend works for him and gave me this info confidentially and don't want to get her into trouble but you all know who I'm talking about.

Have just finished listening to Sharon Osbourne reading her autobiography on audio cd. Not something I would have purchased myself but my brother works in a bookshop and gets lots of freebies - now there's another woman who's lived a life. I must bloody do something with my life, I do try but things always come to a full stop after a while. I'm doing a course at the moment, retraining again, but I had a confidence knock last week and now I don't even know if I'm doing the right thing anymore. I keep planning really interesting photography projects and then losing interest half way through. Agh. I think I may have attention deficit disorder. Attention deficit disorder but no nu metal cds on display - horah. Any ideas for a life/career change, you know where to write it...