Sometimes I feel like I am stuck in my teenage years indefinitely, perhaps no one ever lets go of those feelings and experiences completely. You hear people say how great it is to leave behind the insecurities of youth and to finally be comfortable in your skin and sure of yourself and your direction in life - oh how great it is to be an adult and not have to worry about any of that shit ever again! I hear these people say these things and I think 'YOU LIE, SIR!' (I even think this when it is a woman who says it). Perhaps it's just me being massively unlucky - perhaps I am literally the only person approaching 30 who is still mentally insecure and prone to self-doubt but somehow I think not. I still have absolutely no idea what I'm doing in life and I still find myself going 'what?!!!!!!!' on regular occasions when life really doesn't make any logical sense and people are strange - I still feel like the ugly one that gets over-looked at parties, except the party is the whole world everyday and I probably wasn't even invited. Adulthood, if you ask me, is massively over-rated. Where is the fun? The love? The excitement? The hope for better things in the future? And for these reasons My So-Called Life is still the best thing I ever saw on tv. I still feel like I can completely identify with the emotions and experiences the teenagers in the show went through, even now. Do we ever get rid of those teenage demons? Perhaps they are actually just life demons? Maybe it's a slower process for everyone. Maybe I’ll get there one day.

My So-Called Life is still, in my mind the most beautifully correct representation of teenage experience I have ever seen. I am having a resurgence of love for it at the moment, thanks to talking to my friend Paull about how much we loved the show when we were teenagers in the mid nineties. Having borrowed the dvd box set from me recently, Paull has written a piece on his blog about the impact of the show on him, and I think if I were to write about the impact it had on me I would probably write more or less the same thing. As I know many of you loved MSCL as much as me I thought you might like to read it too Paull’s MSCL article.

And to any fans that didn’t know - it seems that the wonderful A.J.Langer who played Rayanne on the show, got married in 2004 to an English Lord! Bizarre. Other cast news - the incredibly sexy and talented Claire Danes is about to star in Shop Girl, a film based on the novella by Steve Martin - it opens on January 20th in this country - I read the book recently and it was amazingly perceptive and well-written. Go and see the film, it's surely going to be powerfully acted, moving stuff.